Sights 2020

I have written and re-written this post three times now. I wanted to do an “Ode to the Decade”, and discuss how literally everything is different. Considering I was 16/17 when the decade started- duh?

I wanted to touch on where I’d been, what I felt I “overcame”, people that didn’t make it to the new decade, where I thought I’d be. The writing of it just felt, off. There was bitterness to it. There’s a harsh reality to the lessons you learn, but that’s not the tone I’m setting for 2020.

A new decade is exciting, but it doesn’t require a dissection of the past. So I wont do that. (Even if that post was saved in my drafts and ready to go.)

For 2020 I want to work on focusing on the present moment, and preparing for what I want to accomplish. Life is a mountain range. There are peaks, there are pits, and once you reach the top you have to come back down eventually. So again I – duh, that the last decade, the last year, even the last month has been a roller coaster. C'est la vie!

It takes the smallest moment to alter your perspective. Mine was this morning when my bestie knew my nail polish choice being 1,000+ miles away. I laughed, and then I felt gratitude for having someone in my life that knows me so well. That’s when I knew I couldn’t post the melancholy bullshit I had planned. We’re focusing on the now, and we’re continuing the practice of gratitude.

I will say this: The last decade was sprinkled with beautiful people, and wonderful memories.

Here’s to the next decade, may it bring health, happiness, and an abundance of love. Cheers guys! Have a safe and Happy New Year! 

Wrapping It Up

December came and went with the blink of an eye. I started stocking up for Christmas in October and I still found myself at Target today for a couple last minute gifts that I’ve been too lazy to pick up. I love December. I love the lights, the music (sue me), the cold, the atmosphere in general – I just love. 

I finished wrapping the last of the presents; they’re under the lit tree. I’m currently wrapped up in a blanket with The Holiday playing in the background. All I need is a hot chocolate and I’m set. This is one of the few quiet moments I’ve had the last couple of weeks and I’m soaking it all in.

The peaceful moment has me reflecting on the last year and what a rollercoaster it was. 2019 wasn’t a bad year by any means, but it tested me for sure. 2019 taught me vulnerability, and most importantly- boundaries.

I have no earthly idea what 2020 will bring, or Santa for that matter. (Really excited about that.) I do know the first half of 2020 is going to be the busiest I have ever been. I’ve been slowly preparing myself for the challenge. Most excitingly, I will FINALLY be graduating with my degree in production. I’m excited for what’s in store, uncertainty and all. I'm hoping to close out 2019 with a post to the decade, so I'll stop the future talk here.

I hope Santa brings you everything you wished for and more. May you enjoy time with loved ones, and smile remembering ones you might be missing. Merry Christmas- may it be a safe and wonderful one.